Two weeks ago, everything was going right. This past week, there has been nothing but failures. I didn’t get the job. Not even a callback from the company I work for to let me know this. Just silence. My application for continued education, though meeting every marker the company asked for, was denied again this year. The commission artwork I was asked to do was rejected.

It hurts when the voices inside are right.
And all I can think is that I didn’t do enough. I should made a better CV. I shouldn’t have shown any emotion in the interview but should have given business-focused answers. And I should have done a better job interviewing the client, bringing a checklist would have helped.

Knowing that it’s my fault means I can improve. And I know that failures aren’t the end of the journey. We just need to adjust and adapt. My fire hasn’t died. The coals are still throwing heat, and I’ll add the fodder to build myself back up.
But yes, it would have been nice to have at least one success.

I am choosing not to show the artwork I did for the group. Instead, I took an element, a feature that I designed and I made something all new with it. Wheat is something that I’ve grown up surrounded by. I love seeing a field of it. Yet hadn’t thought about drawing it. So yah, something good came out of this failure and I wanted to share that with you all.

Failure is not the end of the journey…