It’s hard to say that I’m okay right now because I don’t think that I am. But I want to believe that I will be. I want to believe that there’s hope.
December, Christmas, the holidays…many of us struggle for one reason or another. Most of us struggle in silence because we don’t want to burden others. And what are we, if not a burden?
So, let’s talk.
What truth is inside you that you wish wasn’t? What secret do you carry because you know if it gets out, that’ll be the end? What must remain silent, because…
It’s hard enough believing it’s true. What am I supposed to do if others believe it too?
I’m sorry.
I’m sorry that I’m not enough.
I’m sorry that I let you down.
I’m sorry that I’m not good enough for good things.
Please take care of you,
because you deserve so much better than me.
S
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selinaelliot
Inscriptions from the Heart 
“What truth is inside you … What secret do you carry … ?”
Selina, I’m not sure what you’re apologizing for. I suspect everyone carries these little secrets around inside — the feeling that you’re not the person they think you are, that you really don’t measure up, that you’re somehow an imposter. But those self-doubts most often appear when we try to compare ourselves to others, who themselves are plagued by the same self-doubts. What a circular and destructive way to think!
So don’t apologize — of course you’re good enough! Reading and commenting here are privileges; I hope you can accept my appreciation for them. And I hope you have a wonderful Holiday!
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Thank you so much for your comments and care! So often I pretend at being strong and positive. Everyone has a struggle that they are going through, and I don’t want to add to that by failing to be what they need. Sometimes I only see what I’m not doing, and fail to see what I have done. I will keep trying to be kinder to myself. A little quiet time recovering at home is exactly what is needed.
Thank you again. Holiday Cheers to you, my friend!
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