Hello all!

I truly wasn’t going to do a post today because I haven’t taken any time this week to think about my heart. This is where I share it! Though the reasons are valid, it just wasn’t good enough this evening to do nothing about it.

Friday was the type of day you don’t wish on anyone. Not even your mortal enemy. A coworker, known for erupting tantrums, turned that ferocity upon me. Directly upon me. I don’t know if he’s ever yelled that loudly before, he swore at me, and he slammed things so hard upon his desk that it shook the plastic partition. In shock, I stared with my mouth open for a breath or two. Then I shook my head as I softly said: “nope. I’m not doing this”. Then I put both earphones in. He stormed away (thankfully). He did not talk to me for the rest of the afternoon, which I think was a good decision.

This weekend, I have agonized over whether or not to tell management. I truly can say so many good things about them, but one thing I can’t say is that they believe me. This coworker always waits till we’re alone before he explodes. This isn’t the first time by far that he’s done this to me. Previous reports I’ve made result in excuses and victim blaming. “He doesn’t know that he’s being abusive”, “you’re a woman, and more sensitive”, “I don’t want to deal with the drama, so just give him whatever”. I’m not sure I can hear that again, and I can’t afford to lose my job. And I won’t cause trouble for those that work there that do support me.

I have no idea what the right thing to do is. I have no idea what I’m going to do. But what I know for sure is that work is not my only within my life. I have school, I have my writing, I have my art and the wonderful communities which exist within these!

So, this weekend I worked on about four different pieces. I wouldn’t normally share something that I’m working on releasing soon(ish), but I am so stinking proud of this one! And I would love to share something good with everyone. We’ll get through the darkness, and what we pick up along the journey may be surprising in a beautiful way.

If you’re going through a tough time, please share it. Keeping it inside does us no good. This is our safe space.
Selina