Life has been getting a little more “struggley” lately. People snapping at work, responsibilities being piled on, personalities clashing, personal struggles affecting attitudes and influencing interactions.

Then coming home there are the struggles afflicting those we love. Willingly, we make the time to listen. Caring comes naturally. The desire to help is strong.

And though the encouragement to share goes out, it is something hard to reciprocate. Try your best to remember that we teach others how to treat us. So, if we’re not willing to share our weak moments, why would they share theirs?

In light of the above, here I go!
In May 2024, I did my first expo. And I’ve been feeling like a failure ever since because I didn’t sell too much, which means I’ve let my sister and those that support me down. I keep thinking of all the ways that I should have done better, and no amount of pep-talking or “learning” erases the feelings of being a failure.

After the expo, I’ve been secretly reaching out to schools and networking contacts hoping to create some momentum. I got a recommendation from a network contact of something to watch. That is all.

I suck at selling myself, because I don’t feel I have any worth. So, am I just creating the results in life that I think I deserve? Is this all that I am, all that I deserve? Is it the wrong time with AI taking over all things artistic? Is there no place where I belong? To give up will mean…

No amount of pep-talk is working. But I’m not giving up even if I’m an idiot to keep fighting.

What things are you struggling with?
Selina